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Thursday, January 14, 2010

I lied.

Yeah, I lied about posting something interesting this time around. Well, at least I've got one link now. I'm too lazy to go searching around and link all of my friends. Then again, I've always been lazy.

Its happening again, guys .. The moodswings and all the sadness. I don't know where most of it is coming from, but I know definitely where one part of it is. I couldn't sleep last night, so I just laid there and thought about stuff. It was when the cold, hard truth really hit me.

I'm quite alone.

I know, I hang around those few guys at recess everyday, but not all of them are what I would call my true friends. A few of them I really find similar in terms of interest and opinion with me, and those would actually count as my true friends.

Coming to girls .. Sigh.

I used to have a few, then we slowly fell out of contact and pretty much stopped talking to each other. I'm sure some of them think me as a friend, but we don't really get much chance to talk and actually communicate. And as for some of those .. Well, lets just say that the previous post sums it up?

I don't know why, I just wished that she didn't have that weird habit. Maybe the rift isn't due to that, but I know it partially is. And even then, it comforts me to think that I know the reason. I always try to make conversation, but it always happens at the wrong time, and she's busy. I always try to care and ask about things whenever something is wrong, but it appears she isn't willing to open up.

Perhaps, from the start it was always my wishful thinking that we could become close friends.

On a happier note .. Wait, there isn't a happier note. Fuck that.

The day was pretty mundane, though the classes were quite fun.

We had a diagnostic test for Literature, and I thought it was pretty easy, though the questions were a little too generic for my liking. Musics, we banged away at keyboards trying to pull up a small string of starting notes for our advertisement jingle. Recess, the same. Ate with See Wei, Yu Hong, Yu Chuan, Zhi Yang, Justyne and Geralyn. We had Science in Tutorial Room 4, since our Projector broke, and you know whats funny? The one in Tutorial Room 4 isn't working too. Owned. History .. Same old stuff with Mrs Law, and Acc was okay, if not a bit annoying. I mean, the teacher's trying to teach and share with us a story or two of his school life, but the guys at the back are talking and chatting away amongst themselves, rather loudly, in fact. I don't care if you guys don't respect the teacher, but please shut the fuck up and spare a thought for your other classmates.

What a clusterfuck some of the guys in 2A are.

One of these guys are seriously annoying and immature. My New Year's resolution had to be changed to NOT bashing this guy into bits even after he's dead. Seriously.

He told me "Oh shit! I didn't do my homework again! I don't want green form so early in the year leh!" I then told him to do his homework. Guess what he replied? Yep. "I don't want to do .."

Fuck, if you can't handle the consequences, don't start shit for yourself.

Nearly got caught for being online just now. I showed mum my gmail account and she was convinced that I was doing something educational and instead just chided me about not telling her that I was going to go online. That is the scariness of motherfucking parents putting their children on a leash.

End rant, hopefully the rift between me and her can be closed up again so I don't get any of this angstyness.

posted at : 12:03 AM

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Name's Chong Xu Cheng. I'm currently thirteen (fourteen on July) and I am studying in Anglican High School. Sad to say I'm overweight, but I'm not going to reveal my weight. Ever. All I'll say is that I stand at approximately one metre and seventy centimetres, maybe one or two centimetres left. I haven't measured it in a while.

Currently I'm single, though sometimes I wish I had a girlfriend, and sometimes I let out a sigh of relief I don't. I've had to help too many friends salvage their relationships and trust me, it isn't pretty.

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Music. (Anything good, except for classical)

Reading. (Only Fantasy, Science-Fiction or action-packed ones)

Writing.

Habbohotel.

Combatarms.

Dislikes

Insects of any kind.

Bitchy girls. I mean, who doesn't?

MMORPGs. Especially Maplestory.

Too serious teachers.

Greatly unreasonable rules, like the ones my school has at the moment.

Old-fashioned people.

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