bleach:KON~ alones

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I'm alive, but I don't think I will be a while later.

Okay, guys. I'm still alive, so don't worry about that. However, I might NOT be alive in a while.

Sigh, the reason why I haven't blogged in ages was because there was nothing on my mind, nothing weighing me down. It meant that there was a period of time where I was truly happy to be around friends that were true to me, and be around my enemies, my crush and stuff like that. Basically, it meant that there was a period of time where I felt normal.

It ended just now.

Fuck, you know how you help someone, then a freak accident happens and that person just blames you for it? That person just forgets that "WOAH! You helped me out of your free will!"?

Yeah, that just happened to me.

My dressing room's lightbulb spoilt, so naturally I was the one with the 'honour' to remove the lightbulb and replace it with a new one. The fucking contractor who built the fucking thing made it a bitch to remove, so I had to use alot of strength to get even the cover out for me to remove the lightbulb. After that I had to use all my strength and control to inch the lightbulb out of the lock, or the lock will just break and ta-da, no lightbulb can be placed there!

So yeah, the guy who made it cheated us of our money. It was supposed to be full on cement around it, but instead it was all partitioning. With all the strength involved, the partitioning broke. The socket nearly fell out and my mum was ranting at me for it.

I was very, very tempted to give her the finger and just storm out of the house after getting my handphone and wallet. If that actually happened, I would go to my cousin's house, two blocks away. Their parents never approved of the way my mum treats me, they'll take me in for a while, I expect, since I get along so well with their sons. (Reason; Both of them play Mousehunt, Dota and Blackshot.)

Fuck my life.

posted at : 6:15 AM

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Fucked up.

Okay, I was meeting Kai Boon, Jia Hong and the few other guys of my group to do the science board game project thingy. It was dumb. I didn't really know where the Pasir Ris Library was, since I never ever go to Pasir Ris, so I mass messaged my list. Yay, only like what? Four replied? Thanks guys. Thanks to Laura for giving me the directions, and thanks to Shimin for replying at least.

So I went there, ate Subway by myself (Didn't really mind, soaked up the silence for a moment.) and went to the fourth floor where the library was. Well, after walking through the library one entire round I finally found Kaiboon, Jiahong and Keane there already started with the work.

Apparently we weren't able to contact Kenzi. Predicted.

Zer Hien had church and was coming late, but cancelled at the last minute. Understandable.

Well, I'm pretty thankful that those two irritating fuckheads weren't there. It wouldn't of been nice if I bashed their heads open with the library chair. We did little progress, really. Keane was continually erasing away his lines because he wanted them to be perfect. It was supposed to be 2-3 hour project time, but in the end Keane needed to go to Tampines to meet up with his parents, Kaiboon had to pick up his brother and meet with his family upstairs and Jiahong needed to get meet up with his mum. That left me with nothing to do.

So Jiahong went off first, me, Keane and Kaiboon went to the Arcade. Didn't bother wasting my money and getting the card there, since I hate arcades (too noisy). Watched them race in Initial D. Keane looked so freaking cool, rofl. He had one hand on the steering wheel and the other hand on the gear shift, looking all relaxed. He lost in the end anyways.

MOVING ON.

We went to play Street Basketball. Keane pressed the one person option but all three of us joined in.

Three people in street basketball = Alot of your shots gets knocked away.

But then, we still broke the record for the other machines, we got a 414. Sadly, this machine we were on had a record of 484. Fucking hell, I wonder how did the guy do it. And I was so fucking pissed off with the people playing beside us. -.= You know, if you're below five you shouldn't even be in an arcade. Two ladies (Whom I assume are maids) were holding up two other kids who were STANDING ON THE MACHINE. And they were making alot, alot, alot of noise, mind you. I swear if they made anymore noise I was going to break something.

In the end, got home and yadda yadda yadda. Played Blackshot for a while, tried out the Dragunov and found out that I liked sniping quite alot. Also found out that while playing a Knife Only match, buy a Kukri and wait for your opponent to come to you. Don't join the fray and jump around like mad little rabbits spamming slashes. When someone runs at you, place your reticule and their head and wait. Timing must be accurate though, or else you're the one that is dying.

God bored of Blackshot, and went bloghopping. Went on Tiffany's blog, and saw the "Why are pretty girls so mean? Okay at least, MOST." Made me wonder what happened again, and in the end I dared not ask. I think she has .. More suitable people to confide in. We grew a little further since we came into Ahs anyways.

End of post.

posted at : 3:58 AM

Friday, February 19, 2010

I don't know why.

Hey guys. Real sorry for not posing all this while, just didn't feel like blogging about my days. They aren't that interesting anyways, heh.

Well, I haven't been up to much these few weeks, only that I became a Legendary on Mousehunt. Finally, rofl. But then, still a long, long way to go until I become a Count.

In reference to my post title, I really don't know why.

I'm sure what I've been feeling is definitely more than a crush. I see no reason how it can be interpreted as a crush, I really don't know. I mean, we talk quite alot, but we never talk to each other face to face in real life. We are pretty much from totally different worlds. Me, the loud, boisterous, rowdy, overweight (severely), ugly guy against her beauty and stuff like that. Her friends hate me too, except for a few.

But somehow, I got through, and we can be seen as .. Good friends?

Sigh. I'll sign off here.

I'm really confused.

posted at : 6:19 AM

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Yay.

Happy Birthday, Tham Shi Min.

I MADE A FUCKING POST ESPECIALLY FOR YOU.

posted at : 4:41 AM

Thursday, January 21, 2010

I lost a friend.

Where did I go wrong,

I lost a friend,

Somewhere along the bitterness,

And I,

Would have stayed up with you all night,

Had I known,

How to save a life.

That song perfectly represents what I feel now. Its been my favourite song for days, and now after what happened, it seems that I can't stop listening to it. I've fallen into life's trap. I got into a quick, short, fun friendship, and it ended. We were friends for barely three months, and it ended just like that. And you know what? It wasn't over a fight. It was just over a talk, and my friend just .. Told me that she couldn't face me anymore.

I should be sad, but I don't know why I'm not. I just feel extremely empty. Like a chunk of me got blown away, ya know? Past the initial shock and all that. It was too bad we couldn't of been friends for longer.

If you're reading this;

You were one of the best friends I ever had, and I'm sad to see you go.

I won't stop you though. Go and have fun with your future friends, and current ones. :D

Have a good life.

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I asked if it was possible if we could be friends again, even though I already know the answer. I don't know why I harbour these false hopes. I know friends come and go but .. This was one friend I rather not have lost.

Sigh, I'm sorry for sounding so negative for these past few days guys. Its just too much for me to take in at one time. To my readers, I'm really, really, really sorry a hundred times over.

posted at : 5:17 AM

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Hey guys!

You know how I've always been immature in school? The loud guy who never lays off his jokes, even sometimes on people who can't take any. -Ouch-

Well, I thought I'd actually want to put this somewhere so I can stop thinking about it. I'm 13, guys. I'm much, more mature than you think I am sometimes, but I only show it during the appropriate situations. There's no point being mature in a crowd of immature bastards.

It brings me down to this song by Bon Jovi, titled "Its My Life". Then it goes down to this verse, namely the chorus; Its my life, its not or never, I ain't gonna live forever, I just wanna live when I'm alive. Its my life.

There you go, I'm 13. I want to live out my childhood properly. I want to, next time when my children scold their children from being childish, to be able to look my grandchildren in the eye and say "Yes, Grandpa was very immature when he was young." I don't want to tell them "No, Grandpa was a very serious boy in his work and he did not have any fun as a kid."

Sigh, after saying all this, I don't even feel like blogging anymore. Sorry for the long delay guys, bye.

posted at : 12:55 AM

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I lied.

Yeah, I lied about posting something interesting this time around. Well, at least I've got one link now. I'm too lazy to go searching around and link all of my friends. Then again, I've always been lazy.

Its happening again, guys .. The moodswings and all the sadness. I don't know where most of it is coming from, but I know definitely where one part of it is. I couldn't sleep last night, so I just laid there and thought about stuff. It was when the cold, hard truth really hit me.

I'm quite alone.

I know, I hang around those few guys at recess everyday, but not all of them are what I would call my true friends. A few of them I really find similar in terms of interest and opinion with me, and those would actually count as my true friends.

Coming to girls .. Sigh.

I used to have a few, then we slowly fell out of contact and pretty much stopped talking to each other. I'm sure some of them think me as a friend, but we don't really get much chance to talk and actually communicate. And as for some of those .. Well, lets just say that the previous post sums it up?

I don't know why, I just wished that she didn't have that weird habit. Maybe the rift isn't due to that, but I know it partially is. And even then, it comforts me to think that I know the reason. I always try to make conversation, but it always happens at the wrong time, and she's busy. I always try to care and ask about things whenever something is wrong, but it appears she isn't willing to open up.

Perhaps, from the start it was always my wishful thinking that we could become close friends.

On a happier note .. Wait, there isn't a happier note. Fuck that.

The day was pretty mundane, though the classes were quite fun.

We had a diagnostic test for Literature, and I thought it was pretty easy, though the questions were a little too generic for my liking. Musics, we banged away at keyboards trying to pull up a small string of starting notes for our advertisement jingle. Recess, the same. Ate with See Wei, Yu Hong, Yu Chuan, Zhi Yang, Justyne and Geralyn. We had Science in Tutorial Room 4, since our Projector broke, and you know whats funny? The one in Tutorial Room 4 isn't working too. Owned. History .. Same old stuff with Mrs Law, and Acc was okay, if not a bit annoying. I mean, the teacher's trying to teach and share with us a story or two of his school life, but the guys at the back are talking and chatting away amongst themselves, rather loudly, in fact. I don't care if you guys don't respect the teacher, but please shut the fuck up and spare a thought for your other classmates.

What a clusterfuck some of the guys in 2A are.

One of these guys are seriously annoying and immature. My New Year's resolution had to be changed to NOT bashing this guy into bits even after he's dead. Seriously.

He told me "Oh shit! I didn't do my homework again! I don't want green form so early in the year leh!" I then told him to do his homework. Guess what he replied? Yep. "I don't want to do .."

Fuck, if you can't handle the consequences, don't start shit for yourself.

Nearly got caught for being online just now. I showed mum my gmail account and she was convinced that I was doing something educational and instead just chided me about not telling her that I was going to go online. That is the scariness of motherfucking parents putting their children on a leash.

End rant, hopefully the rift between me and her can be closed up again so I don't get any of this angstyness.

posted at : 12:03 AM

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Name's Chong Xu Cheng. I'm currently thirteen (fourteen on July) and I am studying in Anglican High School. Sad to say I'm overweight, but I'm not going to reveal my weight. Ever. All I'll say is that I stand at approximately one metre and seventy centimetres, maybe one or two centimetres left. I haven't measured it in a while.

Currently I'm single, though sometimes I wish I had a girlfriend, and sometimes I let out a sigh of relief I don't. I've had to help too many friends salvage their relationships and trust me, it isn't pretty.

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Music. (Anything good, except for classical)

Reading. (Only Fantasy, Science-Fiction or action-packed ones)

Writing.

Habbohotel.

Combatarms.

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Insects of any kind.

Bitchy girls. I mean, who doesn't?

MMORPGs. Especially Maplestory.

Too serious teachers.

Greatly unreasonable rules, like the ones my school has at the moment.

Old-fashioned people.

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